Likely apparent by my lack of presence here or on twitter (where I often chirp about writing accomplishments, curiosities etc. There has not been any lately - hence the absence): it's been a slow moving summer with regards to progress of any kind with my writing. Surprisingly, not because of the weather. To be honest, even that would serve as a decent reason, considering Vancouver has just experienced one of the best summers in a long, long time; definitely one of the driest. The beautiful, warm sunny days haven't been to blame for my word drought, though the major brick wall I arrived at during my editing proved to be nearly unsurpassable. I couldn't wander around it, I couldn't dig my way under it, nor could I scale it and jump over it. I was officially stuck.

     With the hopes of becoming unstuck, this past weekend I spent an afternoon surrounded by the talented writer's of RWA-GVC (Romance Writer's of America Greater Vancouver Chapter) who shared their experiences and advice regarding these setbacks. The meeting included many useful and informative workshops, for me the most useful (given my current state of limbo) was that given by Kate Austin on the 'ABCs of Revisions'. I found comfort in knowing that I haven't completely embarked on an impossible journey. Just because my feet seem to be stuck in concrete at the moment, doesn't mean I am forever stopped in my tracks along this road to publication.

     During Kate's workshop, I breathed a sigh of relief. Many writer's, even published ones, reach moments during editing that cause persuasive doubt.

     I reached a moment like this, with editing Tumble Into Me. While working in the much needed transitions between my scenes, I have woven in way more words than are ever needed into this or any other contemporary romance. Knowing this caused further dread with regards to editing because it was suddenly appearing endless. I could no longer see the light at the end of the tunnel. Soon I felt like I was doing this for nothing; that no matter how much time I put toward editing, I would never reach the finish line, and that thought is what stopped my progress for taking even one more step towards it.

     Now I am starting to envision that path again. It is much longer and windier than I have previously thought BUT now I think I know what I have to do to move forward. I need to start back at the beginning. Scene by scene, chapter by chapter, I need to remove most of what I have added during this editing pass. The story never needed more scenes, nor did it require more characters; it needs complete transitions in order for Tumble Into Me to flow properly for future readers. I'd do well to remember this!

     I also have to remind myself to take time during editing to keep my muse inspired by continuing to write creatively and read for pleasure: both to keep the inspiration and motivation alive. So while I am about to retrace my steps, I am eager to restart from the beginning with these and the ABCs of revisions at hand. Wish me luck! :)

    

           At the end of June and into early July, I entered my first two contests for writing romance. Today I received the results back from one of them. To make a long story short, I didn't score as a finalist. The information stung a little, I won't lie. Thankfully, even though contestants generally enter competitions to win, this is one kind of contest where losing isn't a complete loss nor indicative of an utter failure. 

          In an event of a dismal loss, I was counting on some direct, constructive feedback from the judges as my consolation prize. The judges, comprised of a group of agents, editors and published authors, complete a detailed score-card that gives a breakdown of categories such as characters, setting, voice, conflict, mechanics, and so on. Included in my 'thanks for trying' email, are three of the judges score cards for my entry: then known Going for Gold (now as Tumble Into Me). 

          The results of my three score cards, each marked out of 100 possible points, vary quite interestingly. Two of the judges comments are similar, while the results of the third one differs and is less positive. Upon scrolling down my entry towards the scorecard, I have one of those 'can't look' moments. As in, since I didn't qualify for the next round, I was anticipating depressing scores. Surprisingly, before I reached the results of my first scoring, the judge left some comments and some tips: really positive comments I might add (which I'll circle back to in a moment). In any case, I found myself immediately relieved and willing to face the scores. 

          From the results, my strengths are character (18/20), dialogue (14/15 - with remarks about watching out for dialogue tags) and setting (9/10) - these are areas I do feel comfortable and somewhat confident in so I found this reassuring. I received average results on conflict (7/10). I'm really pleased to have scored 16/20 on style/voice and that the judge felt that my writer's voice was 'unique, enjoyable and flows smoothly at a good pace', that she'd like to see more emotional responses, and to be careful of the occasional 'head-hopping'. Lower points were given for opening/hook (something I'm continuing working to improve) with a score of 3/5. Mechanics, which includes grammar, punctuation and POV received the lowest at 2/5. While this is surprising to me: I've never received negative marks on grammar and punctuation, it's generally a strong suit of mine, this does remind me of areas to be mindful of. Out of a possible 100 points, this judge gave me 78! Phew! Not as bad as I feared. Then again, I am not sure if that is considered quite low in the scheme of the contest results, but it's a number I can swallow. 
     *NOTE: I really enjoyed the story. It’s a lovely premise and I’d love to read more and find out about Julia and Liam. Your dialogue is snappy and fits the country. Good job. I really like Liam – a lot. He’s the sort of kind, caring, hot, hunk of a guy we’d all like to fall in love with. They both have enough secrets that it makes the reader curious and dying to learn more about how they’ve come to be together in this far away land. You’re right, there is definitely something hot about a Scottish accent. Good luck with your story.

          The second score was even better! I earned 83/100! I got flying colours on character (20/20) &  dialogue (15/15) and for style/voice I achieved 19/20! I couldn't happier! Some of the other scoring are alike but the mechanics one - the one about grammar and punctuation and POV and previously earned the surprising 2/5... I earned 5/5! On one hand, I am feel redeemed, that I do have a relatively clear understanding about grammar and punctuation and that my POVs are clear. Like everyone, I'm not perfect, run-on sentences sneak in here or there, as well as a purposeful fragment of a sentence (to help establish perhaps the characters internal response, or mood or such). As I am in an editing draft, any areas where the POV seems unclear, I do take time to go through entire scenes or chapters if needed and make sure the switch is clear. 

          On the other hand, now that I have two different points and comments on the mechanics portion, how can I tell which one I should...heed? Not only that, these two judges had exactly the opposite to say about the storyline/plot: one saying how they love how 'they both have enough secrets to keep the reader curious and leaves them dying to know why/how they come together in this far away land'. The 2nd judge asked 'why is she in Scotland to begin with? Might be nice to indicate this from the start'. This is a purposeful decision on my part and I feel the first judge/reader has the response I would hope for - they are intrigued, curious and want to know more. Again, I am left with two opposing reactions ( which realistically would be what different readers may have). What better way than to see 'where the majority is', then to see what the third judge had to say?

          As mentioned, my third and final score card had a less than favourable score (imho); possibly because I was feeling content and encouraged with the scoring of the first two. The comments are exactly what an aspiring author wants and needs: praise for areas that work great and what areas need extra attention (and in some cases suggestions of where to look for examples of how to improve these). My third score was a whopping, wait for it - 59! Where both previous judges scored similarly, this judge rated the same category drastically lower, ending with comment that 'overall the entry was average.' Don't get me wrong, this judge did also include constructive comments highlighting points she liked and suggested areas to look at for improvements. All of which I will take in to serious consideration. I want my story to succeed, and to do that I need to accept areas of weakness in order to learn what it takes to improve them!
          I know this is the first of many forms of feedback I will get going forward. Readers may or may not like my story, judges may or may not get it, and agents may or may not want it. This is the first in receiving this type of feedback on my story. All I can do is learn from the comments and hopefully find a way to determine which comments/suggestions to work on and which to let slide - as I've found out before, contradicting feedback is enough to make my head spin. If any writer's out there have developed a way to weed through the positives and negatives and select what truly will work to improve the novel, and how to avoid listening to feedback that may not be right for YOUR project, please, please...share!

          I am a avid reader and a romance writer, but one thing that is becoming abundantly clear as I continue down this Road to Publication, is I am not an editor.
          This is something I am learning the more I work at this 'aspiring author' dream of mine.
          What's interesting to me about this particular realization is that, an editor was something I had on the list of interesting and possible careers choices while growing up. I always have loved reading and often, easily zero in on errors in already published works, and would think to myself: I could do that job. It's not that I can't edit. I enjoy the editing, as I am writing the story and rewrite and improve on the interactions, details and pace of my scenes.
          Perhaps if my interest is primarily editing, then it wouldn't feel like such a tediously monumental and endless task. As I try to edit the first draft of my current manuscript, Tumble Into Me, I find myself really begrudging this task as it pulls me away from what I really love: writing. I feel as though precious time I could be spend meeting new characters and developing their stories, is drained by the necessary time spent editing, and re-editing this draft.
          What's most frustrating is, the further along I get in the editing process of this novel, the more words I've added, while I work in much needed transitions (the bain of my 'editorial' existence). When all is said and done, I will need to do another edit of this draft, to scale back down all this extra girth. The idea of getting though to the end of this editing pass, only to have to start back into it, leaves me grimacing. I'm not sure I can withstand another jaunt through that jungle. "Suck it up" right? If I want to turn 'aspiring author' into 'published author' - I have to do what I gotta do, I know that. It's just, when something begins to feel forced, the interest tends to wander and what could wind up suffering is the end result of the project itself. I don't want that.
          Another realization has come out of this editing process, and that is, as a hopeful soon-to-be-published author *fingers crossed*, there are many avenues a writer might choose from, to share their words with the world: some may choose self-publishing, perhaps as online formats, others might choose indie publishers or aim for the big publishing houses. One thing is very clear to me: I don't think I would make it far as a self-published author. Why? Because of how much more editing is required. It's true that some people self-published imperfect, error-laden works, we've all seen them in one format or another, and while that's okay for them, it wouldn't be okay for me; and by no means am I a perfectionist!
          I am a reader, first and foremost, and as a reader, I know when I stumble across typos and obvious grammatical no-nos, it snags my attention, even if momentarily. But it is noticed. It briefly takes my attention from the story line and I wouldn't want that for my readers. I much rather them stay captivated with the story, and not distracted by errors which were overlooked.
          What this means is, when the time comes to query (soon, very soon!) and hopefully connect with someone interested in my romance stories, I will hope to establish a great author/agent relationship as well as, wait for it...an editor! That sounds like a dream team to me. 

          What are some of your experiences or realizations of editing, perhaps tips to overcome the tediousness of it and somehow reach the end, I'd love to hear them all!

          For as long as I can remember, I have had this ridiculous problem with finishing a writing project. I get about 96% of the way, I know exactly how it ends, even have the ending composed, but for reasons unbeknownst to me, I don't finish it. The unrelenting interest at which I write the story, staying up around the clock writing from scene to shiny scene, all comes to a silencing halt. My excitement goes elsewhere, usually in the likes of yet another project. It's probably one of the more frustrating things I deal with. 
          Last October I attended the Surrey International Writer's Conference - SIWC, with the hopes I would find some answers to why this might be a consistent roadblock for me and what I can do to overcome this. I don't feel this is a case of writer's block, per say - though who am I to say it isn't. While, I didn't find clear, concise answers or resolutions, I did confirm that I really do want to be a published author one day. To do that though, I still need to conquer this beast. Determined, I decidedly reduced my socializing, reduced my tv watching, and kept moving forward a page and a chapter at a time. Insisting that THIS time, it will be different. This time, because I want this more than ever before, I can get to the end of Gold and get one step closer to making this dream of mind come true. 
         I currently have at least seven works in progress, four including my current Going for Gold that are quite literally inches from the finish line, three more that are halfway through, awaiting their turns, and also have ideas for another four or five that keep distracting from the sidelines. I want more than anything to see all of these through to the end. 
          I've been steadily moving toward the ending of Gold for a while, editing in transitions and character traits / habits and the likes. I really thought I had the reigns and that everything was under control. Then, my interest waivered. I didn't want to look at my MS/WIP and suddenly found interest in almost anything else: removing cat hair from my area rugs? Sure! Suddenly, I had jumped miles ahead of myself and began envisioning future problems: worrying about not being able to finish the second and third books in the series in a timely manner that would meet requirements. Really? How about worrying about finishing this damn book already! The cart before the horse predicament - I had it polished! I was talking myself out of this before it got started. 
          The thing is, I hadn't even recognized the signs that my same ol' long time problem was rearing its ugly head once again. It wasn't until lunch at Greater Vancouver Chapter meeting of the Romance Writer's of America (RWAGVC), when someone asked me "Are you afraid of failure?" to which I had answered honestly: No. I feel confident that my stories will be well received. I'm confident in my writing and in my characters. She then asked me, quite pointedly, "Then, why are you afraid to succeed?" 
          Nothing has given me more to mull over than that short question. IS this my problem? If so, how do I far that head on? How do I climb over it so I can accomplish all that I hope to? Something tells me she was quite on point, though I am not sure why. And if I'm honest, I think this bleeds into other areas of my life. I think it's time to do some soul searching. If anyone has also dealt with these times of blocks and has suggestions of how to overcome them, I would very much love to hear them.






    

            I'll be honest, it has taken me months to decide whether or not I wanted to write with a pseudonym or not. Now that I have and even made the decision as to what it should be, I know it is the right decision. There are many reasons why an author chooses to write with a pen name: anonymity, privacy or freedom, a way too common or an extremely obscure name, writes more than one genre, restarting a career or perhaps marketability.  Some of the most well-known authors write under an alternate name, including Stephen King (real name) who also writes as Richard Bachman, John Swithen and Eleanor Druse. Best-selling romance author Nora Roberts, who writers futuristic suspense under J.D. Robb, is actually a pseudonym for Eleanor Marie Robertson (who also wrote as Jill Marsh). 
            For me, I have no qualms or anxiety about having my own name on covers or spread across the web. In fact, since knowing I wanted to pursue a career as a romance writer, it's been my dream to find my newly released book in a store and hold it in my hands. That dream always included my real name, never an alternative, which is why it's taken me some time to decide if this is what I really wanted. 
            So why even have a pseudonym? 
            It came down to three main reasons for me to choose to write romance using a pseudonym.  The most significant is that once I have completed (and hopefully published!) a handful of the current romance stories I have on the go here, I hope to also write memoir-style novels as well as take on a children's book series I've been toying with for years. I am projecting into the future yes, but I believe this is the right game plan for me. For those particular projects, I want to be able to publish those with my name on the cover.
             Another factor in this decision is marketability. Amanda Whittaker is a way more popular name than even I expected. Go ahead, Google it. Something like 1.4 millions items are found. There are 98 Amanda Whittaker's on Facebook alone but zero Amy Sedgemore's - until I create one that is. This gives me an open canvas, if you will, to create exactly the 'author brand' that I feel best represents my work. It also will make me easy to find amidst the billions of online users.
            But why Amy Sedgemore? That brings me to my third and most personal reason. My mother Dorothy Lee, of Edinburgh Scotland, maiden name is Sedgemore. She was a strong-willed, single mother of two. A determined, hard working, independent woman, and a writer of stunning spiritual poetry. I know I get my passion for writing from her. She was my biggest motivator, encouraging me to look into workshops and conferences to improve my skills and pursue a career. Unfortunately, she lost her battle with COPD and bladder Cancer in October 2012. She won't be here to see me push toward these dreams, but I know she's guiding me every step of the way. This is my way of honouring her and bringing her with me through my 'Road to Publication.' This is for her. 
            There you have it. My reasons for choosing a pseudonym. 
            P.S. I don't have any specific reason as you why I chose Amy. I tended to use this name, back in the day when playing Barbie's and a main character of a long ago story of mine 'Wishful Thinking'. Plus, I think it has a nice ring to it: Amy Sedgemore. What do you think? Do you write with a nom du plume too? I'd love to hear from you.

        I've been working on this website for two days now and one thing is becoming exceedingly clear: the more I work on it, the more eager I am to complete it, publish it and share it!! I am careful though, not to rush myself. That's when careless errors can happen, and I'd like to avoid them wherever possible. While there will be a page or two that'll start in their 'In Construction' forms, in order to prevent any further delay, I will press on!
        It's not that I am overly committed to my previous blog. It's not that I have a steady stream of visitors there or anything. It's that I have been posting there for over a year now and many of my blog entries there have a lot to do with my discoveries as a 'new' writer on my "Road to Publication." As this site is essentially another stone unturned, I feel it's important to include those lessons and triumphs as well. 
        Check out 'The Inner Workings of Me' and read about my first Writer's Conference - the Surrey International Writer's Conference in 2013, as I take on 'The Dreaded Synopsis', Stick it to 'Procrastination', meet the 80,000 word count and more! 
                    The Inner Workings of Me - take one : http://adnamaone.blogspot.ca/